Something Personal

I wrote this as I sat during my morning ritual of listening. This is very personal and felt I needed to share. I have many notebooks of theses things. I will have urges to write and not even knowing what I write I just do so. I hope you enjoy this for its something very personal to me.
Thanks

The Sage is in bloom. The aura of healing purple hues.
The sounds of the wind chimes gently playing their intoxicating music.
the fall breeze of the desert air.
The crisp cool breeze of winter is upon us now.
The horned one soon will die, making his way for rebirth.
The reminder of the great mother washing away the old to bring the new upon us.
The lavender grows so strong as it struggles to root itself into Gaia, the great mother of us all.
Families prepare to accept the winter.
The sky so blue a hue of peace, with calm clean breeze as it tries to wash away the toxic air that we have created.
We are all at fault for the choking of Gaia.
The mother needs our help as we need her guidance to teach us to love and respect her.
Birds chirping as they prepare their homes for the desert rains of winter to come.
Ive failed at my duties to help Gaia by not cleaning my own space. Ive let my life go. Its time to renew and listen to the ancient ones, to learn from their lessons of wisdom.
Samhain is upon us soon. Im not prepared to have my elders visit through the veil. Life was almost lost and my own thoughts are lost in panic to teach my children the lessons from the Goddess and her consort, the horned one. The lessons need to be heard.
The respect for ones body and Gaia need to be done.
As I enter the Crone phase of my life Im not prepared. Knowledge is still needed for myself to teach my family.
Im stubborn in my ways and let my practices go. Its time to give up myself to the Goddess and the Horned one, the great stag.
I will do what is needed and practice my skills at learning and listening. Ive let that go and its time to be the strong one once again, a great daughter of the Goddess.
They gave me gifts I didnt fully appreciate.
I will be an example to my family and friends. Im going to listen and let the stubborn part leg go so I may find peace, kindness and love in my heart. I will learn the lessons that need to be passed on to my future generations.
No more will I be a daughter that rebels but a Goddess to my daughters so they will become goddesses themselves.
So it shall be or my next lives.
Love, Peace and Harmony.
Merry Meet and Merry Part so we shall meet again.
Witchy Fae

Update on my life

Alot has happened since I last wrote. My husband came home one night after 12 yrs and asked for a divorce. I was devistated. I tried for a week to work it out but he just got more and more distant. I packed up the trailer with all my belongings and packed up the furbabies in the suburban. I was on my way back home to Utah but after just getting onto the freeway I lost control of the trailer and totaled the suburban and trailer. I dont remember the accident just going on what witnesses said.
I was fined a large fine and dont even remember signing the tickets. Its hurt my back and I am still having a hard time remember last week or yesterday. The doctor told me that it would take a while to get back to things.
Well I guess the accident woke the hubby up because he saw it from where he worked. He said he didnt want to lose me but its now almost 11pm and he hasnt called or come home again. This is what happened the last time so its worrying me a bit.
I made a dinner and he didnt even come home.
My daughter came back last week to live with us and its going ok just a struggle I guess.
I havent had time for my studies and im still trying to recover. Ive also had to work to pay for the car I had to buy. Im supposed to be resting but the money is needed to support my daughter and pay for the car.
Its really been hard with a back injury, head injury, MS and all the hoop la of working things out. Im getting a bit of a feeling that he isnt so sure about us.
Im not sure what to feel or think.
I gave all I had today to perform a money spell to cover the bills we have that are piling up. Im wishing I could find a better job but right with the injury I cant. I just want my life back you could say.
Well its been almost 3 weeks since the accident and Im still having troubles with headaches. Im going to see the doctor next week and he is wanting to do an mri so guess we will see what happens.
Well that is whats beeing going on.
Hugs and Witchy Wiggles.

What Ive been up to these days

Well just wanted to pop on and update my blog. Ive joined Witch School again its been a couple of years. I am taking Intro to Herbalisim, Correllian Wicca - First Degree, Introduction to Psychic Development, and Introduction to Magickal Grimoires.

I just completed the class on Your Book of Shadows. Ive learned alot from that classe and going to make a nice Book of Shadows. Right now I only have a 3 ring binder and most of my spells are on the laptop. Im still working on organizing them into sections for my actual BOS.

Im learning every day. I havent done the spell for the bath yet from my frist degree class but plan to this weekend.

Im also doing other classes to complete my High School. I never did finished school some 20 yrs ago.

My daughter and her baby girl finally got an apt of their own and moved in with her fiance. Finally she is out of her dads house and away from the stepmonster. She really gave her tons of stress to a point where she was bleeding. She is preggy with the second child. My oldest is finally turning 18 thursday and is moving into her own place. This is just wonderful. But my youngest said she might move back here. Ugggh Im having mixed feelings about that because of the last experience we had with her.

Maybe if she does come back it will be the time to work with her on nature and respecting it. She does continue a meditation with a large crystal I gave her.

Well enough of that today.
Hugs and Witchy Wiggles

Saturday Morn

Well its been a few weeks. Summer Solstice has come and gone. I had company in town so didn't get to do anything. I'm still reading many books. My sister and her daughter came for a much needed visit. We swam in our pool the whole time. They were working on their tans lol. She left a couple of days ago and is back at work. I am going to go back home at the end of July for some things.
Hubby and I want to get out of town next weekend for a much needed connection to Mother Earth. We want to visit some nature areas. Its been very smoky here with all the fires going on around us. We haven't been able to swim in the pool the past few days for ash keeps falling out of the sky.
I can feel the pain of the earth and only try to ground myself. The hubby is at work yet again. Today I'm going to work on some sewing and maybe make some soap today.
I'm also going to do some drumming to soothe my soul and meditate.
Have fun
Hugs and Witchy Wiggles

Thursday so much fun

Well today is another day. Been working on making lotions and more soap. Ive been trying to put together some more pages for my BOS. Its a big project in the workings. Ive been trying to gather the energy to focus and meditate but lately just cant seem to focus. Well Im off to work on the house then sit and work on catching up on some reading. Im reading Silver Ravenwolfs books again. Really nice to go over them all again.
Hugs and Witchy Wiggles

Friday Fun Fun

Its friday and I have a ton to do today. I am having to get the house cleaned and some projects completed.
My current projects are:
Redesign my BOS
Format new journals in catagories
Make a small gift for a gift exchange with other webweaving friends
Work on a family budgetSew curtains for the family room
So much to do and not enough time to do it.Summer Soltice is upon us and I havent begun to prepare. I have so much to do to get ready.I am going to post some spells and some ideas for the celebration as a solitary witch so keep checking over the next few weeks since the its coming up here really soon.
Hugs and Witchy Wiggles
Witchy Fae